I do what I can. In the past I’ve struggled with the reality that I am far, far from who I want to be. Somehow from all that self-hate and turmoil, I surfaced with this notion: in order to become the man I want to be, I have to let all my hate and worry and disappointment float away like dry leaves on a creek, forgive myself, and be patient with myself. And so I do. Sometimes it is difficult.
Hey, Pat. Something about this entry made me want to comment. One thing that I always admired about you was your ability to evaluate yourself and try to change for the better. Even if things didn’t work out in the end, you at least had the courage to try to take your life in a new direction, something most people fear.
Anyway, how have you been? What are you up to? You live in Vermont??? Shoot me an e-mail some time.
– posted by jesse (14 august, 2006 @ 1:27 pm)